Well, I have arrived back in the beautiful City of San Francisco. There is such an amazing feel in the air here. Always. It’s just pure beauty and uniqueness. I have a tendency to fall pretty hard into any situation I am put in. I fall hard, it feels so perfectly right for awhile and then BOOM! I wake up and smell the smelling sauce.

I love it here. I don’t want to move away. This City has so much to offer. I am one of the luckiest people I know just to be able to be in a place like this. No wonder I have been here for 6 years +.

So, my job search has begun. I have sent my resume to quite a few places that I am really interested in. Human Resource Asst. at the San Francisco Zoo is on the top of my list. I have always wanted to work at the zoo. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS! I have also applied for admin positions at a few non-profit organizations. The Glide Foundation, The Arc of San Francisco and an organization specializing in teen pregnancy. I have also applied to SEVERAL random jobs that I could give a shit about just to get the ball rolling. I am also meeting with a temp agency on Monday just to make certain I will have some money coming in.

I quit smoking last Sunday afternoon and haven’t even considered taking a puff to date. I learned how to meditate and I tried to hypnotize myself and it is working thus far. I am also working on forcing out any negative energy the moment I feel it pop up. I have been eating healthy. Lots of fresh fruits and vegetables. I plan on going to a celebration circle on Sunday and looking into starting yoga classes. Life is feeling good for me right now.

I am so happy to have such a wonderful partner by my side. Together I guess we can do anything. All we need to do is try. He’s so open and thoughtful that sometimes it just doesn’t seem possible. No one can seriously be this wonderful. Then I see the sincerity in his eyes when he tells me things he means. I know that we will make it through anything that can possibly come our way. Hand in hand, you are my best friend.

I am starting to become more and more trusting of myself and my beliefs which is such an amazing feeling. I had/have a lot of self doubt to overcome before I can truly believe in myself. I am on the road to a brighter future. The past is long gone.