I’m not having a good day today. I keep welling up and it’s not subsiding. I can’t think of anything else but how much I miss my brother. It’s hitting me in a really hard spot today. I know that he will always be in my heart and BLAH*BLAH*BLAH but that doesn’t make up for the fact that he’s not here. I can’t talk to him on the phone; Shit, I can’t even send him a text message; I can’t call him to tell him that t-shirt hell has a bunch of new shirts and read them to him. I can’t understand why this has happened or how it even could have happened. He is the most picture~perfect child I have ever known. I’ve been on the other side of the fence so many times before. You don’t know what to say or do, all you know is that someone you care about is hurting and you just want to make it stop. I tell you what though, this side fucking blows. You even have to tell YOURSELF the same shit over and over again and it does nothing for the pain of losing someone so close to you. My brother(s) have always been such a huge part of my life. No matter where I am or what I am doing they are ALWAYS with me. I mean, I practically raised them; or at least helped. They’re my boys. And with Christopher gone, it just feels like a part of me is gone with him. I miss you so much my precious brother. Please come see me in my dreams.
So, Nate has some albums from our Texas trip on his page. Including an album for FLYZZY with all of the slideshow pictures. The above pic is my best friend Rachel and I all cheesed out with 80’s hair and makeup. I say best friend but it’s more like having a sister that you never fight or compete with (except for that one time in 8th grade when we fought in the hallway and I kicked her butt). Shut up, Bitch. It’s my blog. HA! Our love is solid. She always has been and will continue to be my ROCK. My logical thinker. My heart’s keeper. Well, actually she’s sharing that with Nate now, but she’s okay with that. Because now we’re all connected. Just one more member to our amazing family 
View the albums at:
http://www.short-b.us/wp-gallery2.php?g2_itemId=2372
Enjoy.
